When Hope Is Lost. . .

The past few months have been gut-wrenching.

I have questioned if I have the fortitude to tackle the seemingly impossible obligations in front of me.

I have learned many things in the past months. . .

It is what it is. Prayers can be sent up to God who loves me. . .but, it is what it is and God’s will be done.

I didn’t get the world I wanted; I got the world that I got.

The only effective strategy is to walk through the fire. Just walk.

The worst advice I have been given is “Be encouraged.”

No, I am not encouraged. . .it is indeed grim and I must face it.

I have sat in hospital waiting rooms these past few months and gotten a front row seat to human suffering. I have stopped turning my eyes away. I look and acknowledge the fragility of life and then I acknowledge the time that we waste with petty grievances. Time can never be recouped. Use it wisely.

In the end of this life’s journey we just need to feel our loved one’s hand in ours.

I have placed my hand in my loved one’s hand and prayed to God in heaven; I have pleaded for a different outcome.

I am a stubborn, bull-headed sort of soul. I do not know how to give up. I beg God on a nearly hourly basis. He, after all, is my father. I beg God to change the trajectory of this.

And, I will always believe in miracles.

And, a miracle is needed for my loved one.

God will walk me through this fire. God will keep His hand upon me. God will.

God’s will be done.

I cannot change the trajectory of any of this.

Please pray for my loved one and for all those who are suffering, especially those who are alone without anyone to care for them.

This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

But, I believe in God with all my heart, mind, and soul. He has made promises to be my strength and my fortress and to always comfort me.

Now, in the silence of my soul, I just need to sit and rest, and look at the blooming pink petunias in my garden and trust that God is with me.

Please pray for a miracle.

Thank you.

Copyright 2024 Jenny W. Andrews

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I am a published poet and short story writer. I have been published in SNHU's the penmen review. https://penmenreview.com/author/jenny-andrews is the link where you can find my poetry and a short story. Currently, I am writing a collection of short stories, and a collection of poetry. I am trying my hand at writing a novel. Well, not a novel, actually. Make that two novels. My passion is writing. My inspiration is Franz Krafka because he managed to see the absurdity of life. Life is all about perspective and who is telling the story. We all see this life through the lens of our experiences. Literature should inspire us to think, to analyze, and to get lost in unfamiliar worlds in which we learn something new about this human existence. It is my hope that my writing challenges the reader to think, and to see a different perspective, as well as be entertained. My faith in Jesus strengthens me and gives me the courage to survive the twists and turns of this life. My faith influences a lot of my writing in that goodness always triumphs over evil, in that love conquers all. I hope you enjoy reading my blog.

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  2. Your reflection captures the painful tension of loving someone and not being able to change their circumstances. I recognise the feeling of praying with everything in you while still acknowledging “God’s will be done.” It is an act of deep courage. Please know that your words are seen, and your request for prayer is heard. I will be praying for your loved one and for God’s presence to steady you moment by moment.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words. My husband passed away September 2024 and the loss is like an emptiness I have never felt before. I have learned to walk closer to Jesus, to completely trust in Our Lord. It’s a difficult journey. . .Thanks again for your prayers. Our Lord hears our prayers and our cries in the dark valleys of this life.

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